OH Bekah, don't feel bad!!! much of what i wrote to try to make Remi feel better fits for you, too, we aren't born knowing about dogs! at all!! i have no doubt in my mind, that both you and Remi are total devoted dog lovers, no question at all, and all we can do, is try our best and learn as we go. Many many knowledgable dog owners have had a whoops litter, it's pretty darn hard to prevent those, actually. and i wish there were low cost "spay and neuter" options for more ppl, too. I have no doubt, that you did the best you could for those pups, no doubt at all. these things happen. we just live and learn, and sometimes, overtime, we gain new perspectives on things and sometimes we change our minds about one thing or another as we go along. this has happened to me any number of times, on any number of topics. i think, if ppl don't stop learning or at least, thinking things over, is sad. At least, you are all reconsidering and mulling over new ideas. maybe you will change your ideas, maybe your old ideas are right for you, but, it's GREAT to mull things over, is how i see it. and Bekah, you are spot on right, though, about most puppies in pet stores are from puppy mills, and it's sad. Those customers just don't KNOW, or else, they probably would not have anything to do with it. at all.